To sit here and type out the words "I'm great!" in a tiny chat box and hit the blue arrow to make you think I was just dandy would be just as much as a lie as to say I'm a millionaire.
To tell you my life was more clear than than crystal and I know exactly what I'm doing would cause me to be a very bad liar.
The truth is my dear readers:
My life is completely and utterly foggy.
There's nothing terribly wrong with me, I'm not going through a life crisis. I have a wonderful family and friends, I'm getting ready to embark on a new adventure (moving!) and God is still my king.
But honestly, I can't see one day in front of today.
I can't see myself , acing my science test.
I can't see myself a week from now, perfectly preforming my dance routine
I can't see myself a month from now, packing my life into brown paper boxes
I can't see my self in the next years, growing older and chasing dreams my dreams.
I try to fathom it and it seem so far away that I can hardly handle thinking about the next five minutes, and I get afraid that worried so much about the future that I am slowly tick-ticking away my present.
My dears I think as we grow older we come to a point in time where we feel the pressure pushing hard on us from our family, friends, and society that we have to have a "5 year plan of success" after high school and we have to know where we're going to be. They expect us to have a map of our life and to know just exactly what we'll be doing.
We get so caught with pushing ourselves further and further forward and planning the next moments that we forgot to cherish the journey here. We forgot that our own plans could turn upside down in a single moment.
"Come now, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit'- yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” -James 14:13-15 ESV
I'm not saying don't have dreams and don't chase them. I'm not saying don't plan a little bit. Our lives would be even more a disaster if we didn't plan for daily life. But instead of planning for the life you're going to live when you reach your goal,and spending your life planning the next moments, live your life now, and on the journey to where you're going! Live in the current moments instead of trying to control what happens next.
Today may be the very last day you ever draw a breathe.
Did you take the time to tell everyone that you loved them and did you enjoy the simplistic moments?
Did you take even a moment to acknowledge that your Creator, who is so in love with you, wants to be by your side every minute of every hour and created all the earths and the heavens simply for you to exist and see the splendor of them out of his love?
Did you see the moments and live in them as they passed you by? Or did you let them go holding on to a moment that has yet to exists?
I am trying to learn to live more simply, and stop worrying about my days and count my breath each as a blessing.
Live in the moments around and see the beauty god has hidden for you to find. There is great love all around you, and blessing for those who look for them.
'How rare, and beautiful, it is to even exist'
See the love my friends, and grasp it,