The Way-Maker

There tend to be a lot of different names for God; YHWH (Yahweh), Jehovah Jireh, Abba, and tons more. But the one that I've come to use most frequently? Way-Maker.

 A small while ago I sat on the edge of my grandmother's bed and cried. I felt like I had hit rock bottom finally. Afraid that my dreams would never come true and that everything that I'm after, is well, pointless. All the years of dreaming to be a great musician and producer just felt worthless.

My phone lit up and buzzed with an email from a random company. In that moment I saw my lock screen.

"When my heart is overwhelmed lead me to The Rock that is higher than I."-Psalms 61:2

That gave me life. I knew I had to make a choice. I'm standing on the split of the path and there's two ways. Take God's hand and let Him lead and make my path, or wander in the wilderness, on my own.

Needless to say I grabbed the hand that's always there waiting for me to take hold and held on tight.

Sometimes I feel like I get so caught up in trying to feel accepted by the people around me and trying to map my life out like everyone tells me too. But I had forgotten the simple words God told me; "you aren't anything like everybody else."

And it's true. It comes at a price. My small circles feel smaller everyday but my flame still stays ablaze. I feel like I'm in a season of waiting. *cue Colony House *` I'm waiting on my time to come, quite literally. But I think we all go through the times when we have less friends. I think it makes us more dependent on God than running to our friends around us looking for all the answers or searching for adequate solutions for problems in the world than leaning on God.

 Instead of looking around us, we look up.

We look up to the Rock that is higher than all of us.

That's what I want my everyday life to be. I want to look up instead of looking around. I want to be totally surrendered and defenseless by myself. So unsustainable by myself that I realize that every breathe I take is a gift. It's really easy to crave acceptance from the people around you and to be able to say you know exactly where you're going. But to love God is to live a reckless life. One that only looks at today and not tomorrow and that is not self-sufficient.

So now I'm not worried about my music career. I'm not worried about my blog. My main focus is to keep my heart humble and to realize just how real Jesus is around me in the sunshine on my face and the wind against my arms in these summer days. With or without lots of friends, with or without a plan, I'm a child of God, and the Father always has a plan even if I can't see it.

He will make a way. 

After all, He is The Way-Maker.

Take time and enjoy the sun and the moon and the stars. Fill your lungs with the sweet summer smell of blooming flowers and cut grass. Walk barefoot and jump in lakes. Love everyone, especially the ones who don't deserve it. Stand tall and don't worry because at the end of the day, He holds you in His hand. 

Let's shout His name Loud and Clear from the rooftops.

With much love,

JR